Yes, im still happy....wtf?!?!!?!? lol

This morning, im extra happy! Besides the fact next week its my birthday, and this time next week i'll be in a hotel room, in victor harbour! yay! My 'friend' is taking me away for my birthday for 3 nights! how totally awesome?!?!

Also, i haven't spoken to my husband much lately, and i got a message from him this morning!!... Its so awesome! i really hope he i okay. I was hopin this move would make him happy, but apparantly it hasn't so far, which isnot cool. i'd do almost anything for him.

But yeah, i have to start getting ready in half an hour! lol, im going shopping today! yay! im finding clothes for when i go away! so im very excited! faye's comming shopping with me, then about lunch time, or when ever it is raph gets up, we're gonna meet up! lol.

I really couldn't be happier at the moment. Everything seems to be going great! Its wierd....lol

anyways, i'l talk to you all later!

Well another update so soon, how awesome! don't you all feel lucky.

Sorry 'bout the bad typing, these laptop keys suck!!

Anyways, i can't believe how happy i am! is fucking scary! i don't remember ever being this happy, it's so wierd!! lol. yeah......you heard me!!

i know it sounds horrible, but breaking uo with mike was the best thing i could of done!!.....its horrible, but what ya gonna do? i feel bad for hurting him, i really do, its not something i ever wanted, but some things you just can't help.

plus, there is this other person, and he is so fantastic. he makes me smile no matter whats going on. He is always there to talk, or give me a hug, or just be there. When the morons at school are pissing me off he is the first person i'll go to too stop myself from killing some of the people at school.....cause im realy to kill all the morons i have to go to school with.

But.....*sigh* lol. He just makes me smile all the time. Iwake up and smile......its scary, im always fucking smiling, if i saw me, id wanna hurt me, cause im so happy and its sickening.

And on the plus side, yes it is my birthday soon, in about 3 weeks. i'l be 17!! hell yeah! how awesomecore am i?!?!?!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!! im going shopping sat with my mummy!!!! oh yeah! shoping!!!!...yay!!! and hopefully, i'll be going away for the weekend for my birthday!!!

im excited, and hungry.........hmmmm.....what to eat?!?!.......ima go look, then ima get credit!

catch ya!

well its been a while since i've been anywhere near here.

first and formost, i broke up with mike. we were arguing too much, and i just didn't feel the same any more. it was very hard, dunno how to explain how much it hurt to have to do that. i would f surely broken down and not followed through if it hadn't been for Adam, Mick and Chels. they have been awesome.

despite having been at school and work, and having wor the nextmorning, she came over to see me, and hang out and stuff. it was awesome. she was so god to me, i'll never know how to say hank you.

Mick has been a great listner (well they all have)
he justsort of accepts everything whether he likes it or not.he has been great.

Adam has been my advice dctionary, and my hugs. lol. and he helps me do the right thing for me, even if at the moment its the hard one.

i guess im mostly writting this to clear my head, which i will do later with a friend.
i dunno what to do with mike though. i need my space to clearmy head so i know wat it is i want, and what my heart is telling me.

Things are much better now!

lol, i got credit, and I've been talking to a few people. Although i wish my husband would talk to me....more than likely he is still drunk, lol.

Christmas was almost great, spent the morning with me boy, and his family.

Spent mosxt of the day with mine, i was gonna stay a bit longer till Eb came, but my older brother ruined it by being the jerk he is. He was alright at the start of the day, but he got bored, so thought it's be fun to ruin mine.

I ended up eating Christmas lunch/dinner with my mum (she came in with me) inside away from every one cause he upset me. But thats why i love my mummy so much, she does stuff like that.

So i left early before anyone else got there, 'cause jamie was upsetting me, and if i stayed much longer i would of cried! but it got better, 'cause mum took me back and i spent the night with my boy.

I'm trying to spend lots of time with my mum. It'll be much easier when Mike's back at work, 'cause then i won't be upsetting him, and stuff.

But yeah, Christmas was awsome.

I hope everyone had as much fun as i did.

Yes, i got presents, and i loved them, but that wasn't what made the day great. Also cause of a long story (i'l explain later) i have to get my 'big' present after christmas.

OKay, 2 story's which make this journal essintial.

Story 1: Eb and i grew up together, as she livid next door, she's a couple years younger than i, but she looks and actsthe same age, so it makes no differnce. Her brother and her were heaps close, her brother was close to everyone in his family, and him and his girfriend had been together almost 10 years. He died on the 16th of dec. It was very sad.

Story 2: My mum was moving back from interstate, and her car broke down, 'cause her to pay 300 dollars for a rental to get here in time for christmas, whihc is why im lacking 1 present.

and that would be all.

Merry chirstmas and all the best for the new year.